8 Days To GO!

To be Continued...

With my confusion, I broke up with Mark.  I just told him that I want him first to be closer with God without me.  It was also time for me to think and decide.  Though we broke up, Mark still calls me as often as he used to. 

I continued to meet Coco, trying to discern whether he's the one for me or not.  Are his promises meant to be broken?or what not..

It was a repeated hurting situation... I was happy being with my ex-boyfriend but I'm hurting his "not formally girlfriend" that time.  They had this "Mutual Undersdanding" yet uncommitted.  The same with me...uncommitted. 

Speculations came after one from my ex-boyfriend's friends.  Someone was telling me the rumors spreading out in their church.  I was deeply hurt to be texted by their Pastor's wife as if I'm good at hurting people. 

One day, an old friend (Jimmy) contacted me through yahoomail.  He said he was then in the Philippine from Dubai and he wants to meet me.  Jimmy was my former suitor.  He courted me while we were working together in French baker and that was like months before Coco became my boyfriend.

So, Jim and I met and had dinner together. 

One day when Jim called me, I asked him to help me burst out my feelings.  I wanted to open up and be relieved with pain. 

We went out and drunk liquor. After 3 glasses of beer I got dizzy and I wasn't even able to burst my feelings.  Mark called and Jim answered it!  OMG! I didn't know what was his reaction, he's miles away from me. I can move my hands but not my head, it so heavy and I wanted to vomit.  I took my phone and called up ate jelly(my housemate in the boarding house) to fetch me.  Few minutes after, someone fetched me... I didn't realize right away that it was Coco until I vomitted again and managed to open my eyes a little. He brought me to the taxi.  Coco and Jim we're talking and agreed to bring me to the boarding house but I refused, i told them to bring me home.  Well, they were so afraid to bring me to my parents with that state.  So there... the rest is a story. 

The next morning when i woke up and saw Ate Jelly's worried face, she gave me the phone and said that mark was on the other side. "hello" i said.  Mark asked a lot of questions and he was angry!   I was so scared and I really promised that I will not do that sneaky thing again!

What happened next?  I just went with Mark's decisions.  We became on steady again and he told me that he'll be resigning from his job and go here in Manila.  He wants to marry me right away.  Oh no... im not ready for that.  But i want him to see that i was regretful with what I did.  I agreed and started canvassing the materials for souvenirs and invitation with my bestfriends.  December 2009, I gathered strength to tell Mark that I didn't want to get married yet and promised him that I will not drink again especially with a guy friend.  It was an easy conversation, he believed in me! The next month, That was January 2010, He arrived here in Manila.  There was no more chance for me to see Coco and i knew I'll be missing him so much.  Sometimes I sneak out to text him but Mark always caught me.  We fought here and there... yet one thing that really made me love mark until today and made me love him more and more each day was his forgiving heart and sacrifices to win my heart.

 It was a rough road for Mark and I, simply because I can't leave my past.  I was nailed in the memories of my 6 years relationship with Coco. 

Let's see what happened next...

 It's a day before our flight to Iloilo!

Having a problem how to pack my wedding gown and Mark's tux.  The box sponsored by Ms. hernandez was too big and I don't know if we'll be able to carry it to the airport.  The box is too pretty to be left in the baggage counter.  hmmm...